Since going Paleo my family has fallen even more in love with our grill. Paleo and grilling just work well together. The past couple of years I've even been stepping outside my grilling comfort zone more and more. Grilling things I'd never thought to have grilled before and trying new flavor combinations. I have to say I'm pretty thrilled with the results of most of my flavor experiments. In the past I'd never have thought to grill fruit, but it's amazing. Grilling fruit and adding it to traditionally savory dishes? Brilliant. Oh yes, and? New rule: every burger recipe for the rest of forever must contain grilled pineapple. OK, maybe more of a guideline. It's a seriously delicious combination though. This Smoky Grilled Pineapple Burger is always a crowd-pleaser at my house. It's not only Paleo, but Whole30, glutenfree, lower carb, and clean eating friendly. I promise you won't miss the bun! paleo, grilled pineapple burger, smoky
Well, the last of this series will be my craziest thing story.
I thought, and I thought....which story do I tell? From age 18 on, there has been MANY a crazy thing. I chose...
One word: Phentermine. That's a weight loss prescription. Long ago, in a me far far away...
I begged my doctor for it. He told me the possible side effects and warned me that people often just gain the weight back. I said, oh not me. I was desperate. He gave me the script.
I bounced happily to Safeway where I paid the full price for it because my insurance at the time didn't cover it.
First day, I felt...a little high actually...and not hungry.AT.ALL.
So I didn't eat.
Day two, I felt just a little like a caffeine high...and wasn't hungry.AT.ALL.
So I didn't eat.
By the end of week one I'd lost 6 pounds, I was ecstatic! And beginning to feel like crap.
I was becoming light-headed if I stood up too fast...on to week two.
I lost only 2 pounds this week, I started feeling hunger again, but still diminished. I began regularly feeling light headed and now seeing spots before my eyes on occasion.
On to week 3, oh yes I didn't even miss a beat, I felt that desperate to lose weight. I lost a pound on week three and my appetite was almost back to normal. Horrible headaches had added to the list...
On to week 4. I lost another pound...and things were going black briefly when I stood up and got light-headed...I honestly thought I might pass out a few times. And I felt overall like crap, and the headaches were scary.
I better quit taking this stuff, I thought. Hello? Duh? So I did. And the weight started coming back..and...I went back to my doctor for a refill.
I told him nothing of my symptoms and received another script...and repeated this entire thing for another scary month filled with terrible headaches and fearing I might pass out. Oh yes, things were worse this second time around.
Just to lose some weight.
I remember feeling that desperation. I was willing to do just about anything in my battle for the scale. Even harm myself. I didn't care, I just wanted to be thin.
I forgive that me. I love her. I pity her. I am not her.
The thing is, I didn't love myself...you don't treat someone you love this way. It was only after realizing that I had to change the me on the inside to change the me on the outside that I am finally getting it.
I love me. I want me to be healthy and strong. NOT thin at any cost.
Yep...me too. Actually it was the Phen/Fen combo that I took. I lost 40 pounds over course of three months. And I was constipated beyond belief. No headaches or fainting spells, but yeah, I knew it was bad stuff. And so I stopped taking it and gained the 40 pounds back and even more...(this was back in 1996)
ReplyDeleteI actually had someone call me and ask me my opinion of phentermine for weight loss.Said she couldn't afford a trainer nor did she have the ability to go to a gym and wanted to know if that would work instead. I shared that it could work but it there are a host of side effects (as you mentioned) and it wouldn't neccessarily make her healthier. Thanks for sharing this story because I think a lot of people contemplate doing all sorts of things in the name of weight loss when, like you said, it should be about health.
ReplyDeleteWe all would love the "easy" way out and we all look for it! There is no easy way out and NOW we get that!
ReplyDeleteIt's simple, but not easy.
Yep...Phen/Fen here...headaches, spots before eyes, light headed, heart racing...stopped...yep crazy!
ReplyDeleteWow this is so amazing! What a story girl. I'm so glad to know that you are losing weight the safe and kind way now. AND inspiring others to follow in your footsteps!
ReplyDeleteI remember doing some herbal diet supplement before I got married. It made me feel drowsy all day long, but not hungry! I combined that with Atkins (Hello 2 slices of bacon and some cheese for the day).
ReplyDeleteIt's such a futile effort. And even though I've come such a long way- even reading about the 6 lbs you dropped that first week got me the teensiest intrigued.
We are so hard on ourselves, aren't we? I'm picking back up my Women Food and God book again this week.
yup! thin doesn't always mean healthy. When I was younger I didn't care if I wasn't eating as long as I was thin. Felt pressured being surrounded by dancers thinner than I was. Glad I realized what mattered the most.
ReplyDeleteMy craziest was my ciggarette and coca cola diet. yes thats right. The cigarettes took care of the cravings and the diet coke fulled me up. It worked though...boy did it work. But wow how unhealthy.
ReplyDeleteI had a similar experience to you with the drugs too. Different drugs same story.
Wow great post. It is sad what we will try to lose weight at the cost of our health. I tried phentermine too and my heart felt like it was pounding out of my chest. I took it for about a week and stopped since I was scared I would die.
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