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Hoodie from Zappos.com |
Is it because I am cold? No.
Hoodies have become my security blanket, my blankie. I feel very self conscious if I'm not wearing one. It started out that I felt like they hid my mommy tummy well. But my mommy tummy isn't near so obvious and I panicked the other day when I was behind on laundry and thought there were no clean hoodies! Gasp! I had to dig out my white one, and I am not good with white, rather than go sans hoodie.
I realized that day that I am hiding behind hoodies. The pics you see on my blog are all taken to give a good view of my progress, so I strip off the hoodie for those. Immediately once the pics are taken back on goes the hoodie.
I remember last summer wearing shorts, tank tops, and thinner hoodies. I was hot, but I didn't want to let go of my hoodies. I didn't want people to see me. I was hiding my body.
On a long conversation with my sister a few days ago (yes, this is where many of my epiphanies happen) I realized something about this. I am hiding my body because I am self conscious of my shape. Whether I am fat, or maybe worse if I am thin, I am hiding my curvy shape. I am so self conscious of my body that I don't want to dress even remotely sexy. I mean, really, a t-shirt and jeans isn't exactly ms. sex pot. Yet, I feel awkward without my hoodie!
I guess it's just more self image, body image issues coming into the light. I take one down and here creeps another! Who knew I had so many issues?! LOL. Baby steps. Progress. That's what I'm aiming for here.
So, my new goal is to ditch the hoodies a couple of days a week. Taking the band-aid off slowly instead of just ripping it off all at once. Hopefully by summer I'll be able to just wear a t-shirt and not swelter in the heat under a hoodie.
I really like the hoodie in the pic from Zappos.com....oops, this isn't going to be easy.
Do you have clothing you use to hide under?
My weight is down in the 230s but I'm still wearing the same clothes as when I weighed 265. I think that'd count as hiding, no?
ReplyDeleteI have smaller clothes that do (for the most part) fit, but I got so comfortable wearing the loose fitting stuff that I don't wear the smaller stuff. Boo!
I have these over size shirts that use to be in fashion last year and I hide in them. I think Also I have my fat jeans that are a tad loose on me and make me feel not as bad about myself.
ReplyDeleteP.S. I like that hoodie too!
I'm still wearing the same jeans from 80 pounds of loss. They don't fit and look schelpy. but I wear them cause they are comfortable. wrong? but so easy to do. Cute hoodie... could I trade one crutch for another?.... hmmmm
ReplyDeleteOMG we are the same person...only I have 2 items I use to help shroud my pudginess...a jean jacket and a cream colored vest deal. Slowly but surely I am feeling better about my waistline and as the weather heats up I better be haha. I can't believe how much I can relate to this post LOL.
ReplyDeleteOversized tshirts in the summer and blazers or cardigans in the winter. Even when I was thinner my husband would get so frustrated because he felt I never bought clothes that truly fit me.
ReplyDeleteIsn't it amazing that once we stop overeating and begin to lose weight ANOTHER issue crops up. What an epiphany for you. I think it's great that you are digging to the root of the whole body image/weight issue. You uncovered another little thing that you can work on. The awesome thing is you ARE working on it :)
ReplyDeleteDitch the hoodie...you're beautiful without it.
I can understand this. I actually had someone ask me (via comment) if I was doing this- hiding my body, because all my pics have me in a sweater or hoodie. I laughed and had to say no I am honestly COLD. For the first time EVER in my life I get cold. lol
ReplyDeleteI think that hoodie is cute too...lol
I am a sweatshirt wearer...and just recently (in the last year) discovered that hoodies work too. I get them a size (or two) larger than needed to mask how much weight I've gained. When I can't wear a hoodie or sweatshirt I wear the camp type shirts (short sleeves w/darting in the front) because they drape just right. Another blankie are capris because they fit "just right" that it makes me look taller and thus slimmer.
ReplyDeleteI wear pants. Always. I have more problems than excess weight. I am also neon. Neon white.
ReplyDeleteI hide in knit baggy pants most of the time. Funny... I really don't like hoodies. The hood seems to drag the darn thing down and I am always feeling strangled. My teen lives in them!
ReplyDeleteI love hoodies for the plain comfort but my fat hiding clothes are my elastic waist band sweats. And sweat pants in general. It's because I'm too cheap and too in denial to buy bigger jeans (since I want to fit back into my smaller ones) and the fat pants let me eat and eat without immediate consequence. I still love sweatpants but I'm trying not to wear them now.
ReplyDeleteI have a long black cardigan that I use as a cloak of invisibility outside of the house. Otherwise, stretchy "jogging" pants at home, sometimes with a matching hoodie.
ReplyDeleteLots of girls and women are addicted to hoodies. Just say NO! You can do it! Show your curves!
I loooooove my long sweaters. They hide everything! Although, I'm also a big fan of these trendy, tent like dresses I've been rocking lately with leggins. I'm ready to trade in the overflowing tarps for some shapelier digs though.
ReplyDeleteOooh, I love that hoodie! I know this might sound strange, but I'm saving that picture as a motivation. I want to look that good in a hoodie (well, without being a plastic mannequin).
ReplyDeleteI tend to hide under those sorts of clothes too. Trying to convince myself that baggy clothes aren't always the way to go.
Hmm...I don't think of have anything I wear that I hide behind; however, I LOVED this post! I loved how honest you are, how you have set goals for yourself, and how you are digging deep to change the things about yourself that YOU do not like. Good for you! Though there are clothes that I hid behind, I'm sure there's something. I will think about it and let you know!
ReplyDeleteI had to laugh out loud as I read this post, because I am the queen of hoodies in my neck of the woods. Seriously, I've even convinced other girls of the beauty of the hoodie. I will argue it's usefulness (in covering my insecurities without actually acknowledging this) without even batting an eyelash. I've worn them, even in the most inappropriate of places- to dinner parties, to work; I even have one in the back of my car at all times in case I "need" it.
ReplyDeleteWe can ditch the hoodies! I have been working on ditching mine. While it's still my "go to" piece of clothing, I'm getting better; I haven't bought a new hoodie in 2010. :)
Thanks for a great post!
I think hoodies are sexy! I have a few that are kinda tight and show off my curves. My advice is to get rid of the loose hoodies for some skinny jeans and a slim fitting hoodie!
ReplyDeleteThanks everyone! Glad to know I'm not the only one! Wrote this post...and put on a hoodie, lol, working on it!
ReplyDeleteI used to hide behind hoodies and large t-shirts, but once I started getting really serious about changing my lifestyle I decided it was time to change the way I dressed my body as well.
ReplyDeleteOne day, you'll find yourself reaching for the hoodie and you'll finally say no. But that all comes with time. =]
You can get fitted hoodies too. They are cute and comfy but will show off your hard work.
ReplyDeleteI definitely hide under hoodies. I always have. I could wear form fitting clothes and look hide but instead I hide behind HUGE hoodies all the time. Really it's kind of obnoxious.
ReplyDeleteBoth hoodies and Zappos rock! Love the photo of the one in this post too...super cute :)
ReplyDeleteI'm guilty of wearing my husband's t-shirts often...they are huge and baggy. And I'm still wearing my size 24 jeans even though they are ridiculously baggy on me after losing nearly 25 pounds...and I do have a pair of size 22's that fit good, but I'm not used to the more 'fitted' approach. I often find myself absentmindedly putting a pillow over my midsection when sitting on the couch, in an attempt to "hide" my belly. Silly. I do like the hoodie you featured though too! It looks like a fitted one...that'd be okay right? Oh, I'm not being helpful am I?! :)
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