Since going Paleo my family has fallen even more in love with our grill. Paleo and grilling just work well together. The past couple of years I've even been stepping outside my grilling comfort zone more and more. Grilling things I'd never thought to have grilled before and trying new flavor combinations. I have to say I'm pretty thrilled with the results of most of my flavor experiments. In the past I'd never have thought to grill fruit, but it's amazing. Grilling fruit and adding it to traditionally savory dishes? Brilliant. Oh yes, and? New rule: every burger recipe for the rest of forever must contain grilled pineapple. OK, maybe more of a guideline. It's a seriously delicious combination though. This Smoky Grilled Pineapple Burger is always a crowd-pleaser at my house. It's not only Paleo, but Whole30, glutenfree, lower carb, and clean eating friendly. I promise you won't miss the bun! paleo, grilled pineapple burger, smoky
I miscounted and am a week late starting my official 5k training. I thought my race was post-poned until September, but found out it will be in April. Well, maybe a half a week late starting. No problem, jumping in.
I was up on my treadmill last night trying to bang out 3 miles in walk run intervals. In started that annoying voice. Ugh, this is hard, walk already. Lungs are burning, you can't do this! What, you think you can hold that pace?! Ha ha ha. My inner fat girl trying to defeat me again. This negative self talk, inner fat girl, whatever you want to call it has held me down long enough. She has told me for years that I wasn't a real writer, you have no talent. She has told me I'm fat and ugly. She has told me I wasn't a real runner, you're too fat to be a real runner, even during my marathon! She has told me I'm not good enough. She has told me I can't, I can't, I can't.
Well I say, suck a thumb inner fat chick, I CAN! My goal for this 5k is to beat my fastest 5k time of 38:58. Not just beat it, tear it up! Inner fat chick says there's no way! I say, way. I am setting the goal of coming in under 35 minutes.
I've always ran races with someone and always felt either I was holding them back or they were holding me back. This time I will toe the line alone. Other people I know will be racing, but I race alone. Just me vs that inner fat chick.
Every race I have ever ran I have finished knowing I didn't give my all, knowing I could have done better. I get to the end and I'm not spent, I have more left in me, I didn't try my best. Every single time I have let that inner fat chick psyche me out. Telling me it was too hard, telling me I can't. Telling me I ran funny, looked funny, sweat too much, breathe too hard, blah blah blah. Well, give it your best shot this time inner fat chick, bring it.
I am putting pen to paper for my training plan. I hope to beat some fat off between now and then. Less weight to carry means a faster me. No matter what my weight winds up being I will give it my all.
No more fear of failure. No more being afraid to give it my all because what if my all isn't good enough. No more excuses. This race I leave it all out on that dirt road.
It's just you and me inner fat chick...and I'll be takin' you OUT.
So, think of me April 17th. I'll be on a back country road in Colorado fighting for me.
Love this!
ReplyDeleteI totally hear you on racing with people. Yes, I get that its great for the support... but if either of you are having a bad race it totally sucks for the other person.
My little tip: Pace yourself off a random person! I always pretend they're my training buddy... and I keep my eye on them the entire race.
I realize that sounds somewhat stalker'ish but I'm sure you know what I mean.... I HOPE! :)
Thanks Amy, that's a great tip.
ReplyDeleteI was wondering if anyone else had an inner fat chick that talked to them! I just started running on a treadmill and I did the same thing. I talked myself through it. I have been fat long enough. Time to get with it and work on being fit. Love this post!
ReplyDeleteYou are so gonna kick her ass!
ReplyDeleteKill that little voice I say!
ReplyDeleteI hate that inner voice that's so negative. Can't we neutralize it somehow? There has to be a way.
ReplyDeleteI hope you get that time! I love goals like that. They make me keep running longer than I feel like I can. And the rest of the day is so much better. ;)
You just made me cry! I can't express how happy I am for you!
ReplyDeleteLove you... sis!
I know how you feel!
ReplyDeleteI always thought, "there's no way in hell I'll be able to swim a mile!" "There's no way in hell I'll last ten minutes on the treadmill!" "There's no way in hell [...]"
Forever talking ourselves down, we're our own worst enemies - and, as you proved yourself, our own best supporters, too! So go, you, for putting the inner FATGIRL aside and listening to the inner FITGIRL instead.
And maybe by the time September comes around, I'll be training for a 5k, too. :)
I love this post too! Funny, I just finished writing a post myself about my fear...aka inner fat chick. It makes me so happy to read this post and know that not only am I not alone in fighting with IFC, but that you're DOING IT. You're running the marathon, you've set goals, and you will not let yourself be defeated. I love it, thank you thank you!
ReplyDeleteThose are fighting words, and I do believe she's going down.....
ReplyDeleteThe winnah is Kat! Kat has defeated the IFC. Clap, clap, clap, clap!!!
Aww, thanks guys!
ReplyDeleteYOU GO KAT!! Show that inner fat chick who is boss!!! I think we all have one, but no one gets rid of her. Good for you for being assertive with her!
ReplyDeleteSounds like you are revved up and ready to go! Shut that fat chick up!!!
ReplyDeleteWOW! good job girl! keep doing WORK! i 2 fite that mean bitch n my head! after having 3 kids i was probly 200 lbs & 37 yo b4 i got serious about really knowing I had 2 do sumthing b4 i hit my 40's. vry happy 4 your successes. i njoy running & working out, but still wana eat like a teenage boy! njoy ur page & posts! look fwd 2 hearing about your journey! =)
ReplyDeleteI have my race tomorrow and am super excited but nervous too! You will TOTALLY beat your inner fat chick, she's a nobody. I know you can do it, and I know I can do it.
ReplyDeleteSo let's both beat our inner fat chicks and finish the 5K strong!
I'm so glad you wrote about the inner fat chick. I thought I was the only one who had one dwelling within her!
ReplyDeleteA few months ago, I was at the gym. I hopped on the treadmill, hoping to get a run in. But I couldn't do it. I thought everyone would be looking at the fat girl on the treadmill trying to run (mind you, I've already lost 65 lbs & reached my goal weight in Oct. 2008, maintaining ever since). But mentally I felt fat. I went again two days later & still couldn't do it. Later that week, I got back on, only to get a wobbly treadmill. Everytime I ran the treadmill would wobble from side-to-side. The fat girl within me said, "See...you can't run!!! You're too fat!! You're gonna break the treadmill!" I hated her for that!!! It was awhile before getting the nerve to get back on the treadmill & run again. I did it eventually & shut the inner fat girl up! I looked in the mirror as I ran & didn't see a fat girl. I saw a healthy woman who resembled me, running the best way she knew how.
Every once in awhile the inner fat chick rears her ugly head again but I do my best to get through it.