Since going Paleo my family has fallen even more in love with our grill. Paleo and grilling just work well together. The past couple of years I've even been stepping outside my grilling comfort zone more and more. Grilling things I'd never thought to have grilled before and trying new flavor combinations. I have to say I'm pretty thrilled with the results of most of my flavor experiments. In the past I'd never have thought to grill fruit, but it's amazing. Grilling fruit and adding it to traditionally savory dishes? Brilliant. Oh yes, and? New rule: every burger recipe for the rest of forever must contain grilled pineapple. OK, maybe more of a guideline. It's a seriously delicious combination though. This Smoky Grilled Pineapple Burger is always a crowd-pleaser at my house. It's not only Paleo, but Whole30, glutenfree, lower carb, and clean eating friendly. I promise you won't miss the bun! paleo, grilled pineapple burger, smoky
I am living my life. I am living it out loud. I am living it right now.
That is my battle cry.
I have spent so many years waiting, hiding, looking to the future. The thought pattern was: well, when I reach X weight I'll...or can't wait until I fit a size X jeans, then I'll...or if only I wasn't so fat I'd...
I have spent years hiding myself and my body. Years planning what I'd do when. Years feeling bad about myself in the meantime. NO, NO, NO.
I am living my life. I am living it out loud. I am living it right now.
No more waiting. No more hiding. No more shame. I only get one life and I do NOT want to look back on it and feel it's been wasted. I do not want to look back on all the missed opportunities, all the wonderful things I could have done with my kids, all the places I never went...and REGRET.
So, I go to the beach or the pool with some flab, extra skin, and stretch marks hanging out...so what?! What's the worst thing that could happen. I could get a weird look or someone could say something mean? People could judge me? Possibly. But even if that were the case I have to put that in perspective. What kind of childish people do things like that? People that don't really matter that's who. And what am I giving up over the slim possibility that these things might occur? I'm giving up living my life! More so, what are my kids having to give up over this fear? My kids don't know how to swim. They are missing out on a love of water and some serious summer fun!
That's just one example of something I avoid over shame of my body. There have been many throughout the years and there are many still.
No more. It stops here.
I am living my life. I am living it out loud. I am living it right now.
I won't get another shot. My kids won't get another childhood. I will not let shame have them!
This weekend I will don a swimsuit and go to the pool. Seems like a simple statement. A passing mention of my weekend plans. But this statement strikes terror into my heart, makes me quake with fear inside. It brings up ever bit of insecurity I've ever felt. But I will face the fear, I will ignore the insecurity and I will do it anyway. I must.
I live now!
does NOT seem simple at all to me.
ReplyDeleteWhat I love about this journey and the blogging community is that we all may have different "things" which are huge steps for us to do---but at the core they are all the same.
LEAPS OF FAITH.
You go girl!!!!! I needed to read this today!!! Thank you
ReplyDeleteI needed this, you are amazing. This post is right on target and beautiful. um... I haven't bought a swimsuit in forever... nope.
ReplyDeleteLOVE this post!!! I hope you are able to enjoying your time when you have to wear the bathing suit. I relate to this post...totally!!
ReplyDeleteMy kids are now 17 and 13 and I can't get back all the time I wasted on shame over my body. Live it girl!!!
Way to go, girl! Just doesn't matter what they say, in the long run or the short run. You have made astounding progress, have changed your entire life and probably built some amazing character along the way!
ReplyDeleteWhat I discovered after I braved the pool was that other people started showing up who weren't in perfect bodies! It was awesome!
Great post! I am so afraid I will look back on my life with regret and I don't want that to happen, I want to find simple joy in the here and now and live one day at a time, thankful for what I have.
ReplyDeleteGood for you. Living with regret the entire time instead of enjoy where you are is so miserable. Enjoy the journey instead longing for the destination.
ReplyDeleteOK I hang at the pool almost everyday and I see tons of moms with their children and they are wearing a swimsuit. Some look better than others but in my eyes all I see is the joy the children have as their mom is catching them as they come down a slide or just being there with them. So I say YOU GO PUT that swimsuit on!
ReplyDeleteGood for you Kerri!! You deserve all the best and just think when you're in your bathing suit how far you've come and the people that know you will only see that, you have to see that too and not give a sh*t what strangers think because you're beautiful!
ReplyDeleteYour post speaks to me. I feel the same way and want to change my entire life. But I need to start LIVING and change thigns as I go. My children deserve that!! <3 your blog!
ReplyDeleteWoohoo! Great inspirtation!
ReplyDeleteHigh five, sister! We only get one shot at this life, let's live it fully!! :)
ReplyDeleteLive it loud. Live it proud!
ReplyDeleteYou will totally look smoking in that swim suit. If you have confidence in yourself, you will radiate that energy :)
Beat that inner fat girl and get her outta your head because you should be PROUD of everything you've accomplished!